YouTuber Marzia Bisognin has revealed that she’s leaving the platform behind.
In a video posted to the video sharing network yesterday, she revealed that after much consideration she’s decided to pursue a new life away from the internet.
In the eight-minute long video, Marzia opens up about her entire YouTube life, tracing it back to when she started dating her future husband, Felix Kjellberg, better known as PewDiePie.
“All I have is this feeling that it is time for me to try something new in my life,” she explains in the video. “This may seem so sudden to most of you, probably, but it is something that I knew for a long time. Especially this year I’ve struggled with finding a reason to keep going.”
Even though PewDiePie has a massive 67+ million fanbase on YouTube, Marzia Bisognin was able to create her own following. At the time of her announcement, she had 7.4 million YouTube subscribers, 5.4 million Instagram followers, and 3.94 million Twitter followers.
As she explains, her decision to leave the platform has nothing to do with the fans or the fact that she’s bored with it. Marzia explains that she found herself depressed, not wanting to leave the house.
She also explains that she wants to move on from the platform to see what else life has to offer. She’s currently living in Brighton, East Sussex, in England, after the couple made a decision to stay away from Los Angeles and New York where people would recognize them all the time.
Recounting her early life on the internet, while living in Sweden, she says in the video: “I ended up in front of the computer a lot, and for the first time I started realizing how much there was on YouTube.
“Obviously Felix was doing it for a few months at this point, but it never occurred to me that there could be much more than cat videos and gaming … seeing all this variety on YouTube really opened up a whole new world for me.”
When Felix saw his YouTube account rise super fast, she felt that she was becoming a “fraud” because of all the attention she was getting. She points out that while it was great that companies were paying for their trips and everyone wanted to meet them, it was hard for her.
“I was thrilled for Felix, but I felt like I was a fraud,” she says. “I definitely didn’t deserve all the attention. I just happened to know someone who did.”
Eventually, Marzia says, she was struggling to complete everyday tasks or even leave the house and she felt like she had no friends to hang out with.
After a few months, I realized it was because I had allowed myself to become completely cut off from the world. I wasn’t seeking any friendships and I was just finding comfort in my own little bubble on YouTube. I think it’s great how people can relate to others online. I grew so much more confident because of it, but if you allow it to take over your life, I think it’s not healthy.
She then explains how she doesn’t want to continue with YouTube if it feels forced.
I don’t want to force myself to keep going when I feel like I’m ready to do something different. I hope this doesn’t come across as me being tired of this. It’s not about that. It’s about me needing to find my path. Because for a long time I’ve felt like I was following someone else’s, and I think it’s about time that I give myself a chance with something else.
As for PewDiePie, at the time of writing he had made no mention of Marzia’s decision to leave the platform behind.
The two got engaged this past April, and it doesn’t sound like Marzia and Felix will be finding it hard to make ends meet after she steps away from the platform.