Jesse James wanted affair to be revealed

May 24, 2010, 17:32 GMT

Jesse James "wanted to get caught" cheating on Sandra Bullock.

The motorcycle entrepreneur - who allegedly cheated on the Oscar-winning actress with at least four women - admits he "felt horrible" sleeping with other women but believes he was trying to "self-sabotage" his life.

He admits in a forthcoming interview with US TV show 'Nightline': "When I was doing it, you know, one, I knew it was horrible. It made me feel horrible. And two, I knew I would get caught eventually, and I think I wanted to get caught.

"I don't think I know for a fact now what it was, you know. I mean, it was me trying to self-sabotage my life."

The 41-year-old star - who has three children from previous relationships - "still loves" Sandra, 45, who has since filed for divorce.

He added: "It's still hard for me to talk about, a little bit, because I still really love her and care about her.

"I've spent my whole life with the kids and with her trying to... protect her from everything, but the most hurt she's ever been caused is by the person that wanted to protect her. It's terrible, and she's going to be hurt for a long time."