Shania Twain wanted to 'disappear' after split

Apr 9, 2010, 16:30 GMT

Shania Twain wanted to "go away and disappear" following her marriage split.

The country singer - whose 14-year union with Robert 'Mutt' Lange ended in May 2008 when he embarked on a relationship with Shania's friend Marie-Anne Thiebaud - is delighted to be the focus of a new reality TV show, 'Why Not? With Shania Twain', as it is helping her "recover" from her personal problems.

She said: "I feel like in a way I'm starting over, with everything. This is a very personal experience that I think is important to share. This is an experience of recovery. I was in a very deep, dark slump, and I needed to find a way to get myself out of it. I had to force myself back out into life, back out into experiencing things.

"There were moments when I really just thought, 'I don't need anything and I don't need anyone. I just want to go away and disappear.' So, that was a bad slump."

Explaining the title of her TV show, the 44-year-old star - who is now dating Marie-Anne's ex-husband Frederic - says it is a reference to her recovery.

She explained at a presentation for OWN: The Oprah Winfrey Network, which will broadcast the series: "One day, someone said to me, 'Do you want to go jump out of an airplane?' I felt like I had nothing to lose anymore, so I said, 'Why not?' And every day since then, I ask myself that question."

Shania - who has an eight-year-old son Eja with Mutt - is still recovering from her relationship woes and admits she is unsure if she will ever fully be able to put the separation behind her.

She said: "There's a lot of recovery to accomplish. I'm not there yet. I'm on my way there. I'm not sure I'll ever be there."