Sandra Bullock's mother struggle

Jan 3, 2010, 6:01 GMT

Sandra Bullock says her mother's death has made her appreciate life.

The 'Proposal' actress was devastated when her beloved mum died in 2000 and while she still struggles to come to terms with her loss, it made her realise how precious life can be.

She said: "It took me two years to accept that she's not here. It doesn't get easier; it gets harder. But it's a good thing, because I feel it and I value it and I'm not rushing through life. I love to do things that continue what she started, whether it's making candles or creating a place for women going through chemotherapy to spend time with their families."

The 45-year-old star also realises there are much more important and fulfilling things to do than being an actress.

She added: "I just talk and do and move until I find out why I'm supposed to be here. And it's not to be an actress, I tell you that. It's to make people laugh, yes, but maybe it's to make people laugh to make the money to be able to make something. It's a circle, but I'll keep moving until I find it."