Amy Winehouse's overdose 'shame'

Amy Winehouse was "engulfed in shame" after her drugs overdose. British soul singer Amy Winehouse performs during her concert at the Volkshaus in Zurich, Switzerland, 25 October 2007. The concert is part of her Tour, which was planned already in the spring 2007, but then was postponed. EPA/STEFFEN SCHMIDT

British soul singer Amy Winehouse performs during her concert at the Volkshaus in Zurich, Switzerland, 25 October 2007. The concert is part of her Tour, which was planned already in the spring 2007, but then was postponed. EPA/STEFFEN SCHMIDTThe troubled singer - who was hospitalised in August after taking a cocktail of heroin, ketamine, cocaine and ecstasy - says she owes her life to husband Blake Fielder-Civil and claims she doesn't even recognise herself from that turbulent time. She said: "I really thought I was on the way out. My husband Blake saved my life when he brought me into the hospital. "I often don't know what I do. Then the next day my memory returns, and I'm engulfed in shame."I recently saw a picture of myself when I came out of the hospital, and I didn't recognise myself anymore. I believe I live through pain - if you suffer for something, it means it's important." The 24-year-old singer has also confessed she self-harms because she suffers from severe bouts of "depression".She told Germany's Stern magazine: "I feel that a black cloud hangs over me. I have taken pills for depression but they slowed me down. I believe there are lots of people who have these mood changes."I'm just really lucky to have found this outlet - my music."Amy is currently in the middle of a European tour, which she had to originally postpone in the wake of her overdose, and will be performing in Paris' renowned Le Zenith concert hall on Monday (29.10.07).(C) BANG Media International